My Public Speaking Experience
by
Monique Vieira, Round Lake High School, Class of 2015
I awoke on the morning of my speech with a
horrible feeling of dread. Hours before I even had to get on the bus, there I was
freaking out about how many ways I could possibly mess it all up.
What if I choked up mid-thought?
What if I looked up to make eye contact and just
suddenly forgot everything I was going to say?
What if I lost my place somewhere in the middle
and accidentally blurted out, “Oh, right!” when I found it? (Spoiler alert, I
did.)
“Oh God,”
I thought, “Why did I ever
agree to this?”
So I went through my morning routine a nervous
wreck. And I got onto the bus an even greater nervous wreck. And by the time I
actually set foot in the building where I would be presenting my speech, I’m
sure they would’ve needed to invent an entirely new word to describe just how
nervous I was. But before I knew it, it was my time. The few steps to the
podium felt like miles as the fear of public speaking rushed through my head.
At last, I placed my speech down in front of me and began to speak.
I remembered being in those seats a year ago. I
remembered watching Scholars speak so fondly of their summer college program
experience and wondering, “Will that be me next year?” Would I be as passionate
in a year’s time as they are now?
Yet one year later, there I was. All eyes were
on me, waiting to hear what I had to say about my experience.
“Why did I ever agree to this?” Suddenly the
answer was clear. I wanted to inspire someone. I wanted someone to listen to me
speak and think, “Gee, if it can happen to her, it can definitely happen to
me!” I was up there to say the words and be the example I had seen a year ago.
To show someone how great a summer college program could actually be: how it
could change your life and open your mind in ways you never would have thought
possible.
Part of the reason I was there speaking that day
was because I experienced that change firsthand. Over the course of my
three-week program at the Carleton Summer Science Institute, I experienced a
complete 180 in how I viewed the world. When I first arrived, I was arrogant
and stubborn, but all of that changed as the weeks flew by. By the end, I had
learned so much, from the value of asking for help to being confident in myself
without being presumptuous and so much more. In a way, it was thanks to my
experience that I had the guts to give my speech in the first place. Without
the lessons I had learned in going outside my comfort zone and facing my fears,
I would have probably given into my nerves and copped out. But that was ancient
history. I was there to share the story of my transformation, and that I did.
As I ran through my speech, the
nerves that had consumed me all morning faded. My words felt like they were
taking on a life of their own as I conveyed my experience. Once I was finished,
a wave of relief washed upon me. I had overcome my fear and shared my message,
and I could not be prouder of myself for doing so.
Thanks again Monique. You spoke powerfully.
ReplyDeleteWOW! Beautiful post, and I'm sure the speech was, too!
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